Have you ever felt that gnawing guilt, that fear that you’ve done something unforgivable? You’re not alone. Let’s dive into this together and find some peace.
This has been dwelling on me for 5 days straight. I feel extreme guilt for what I’ve done in the past and can’t determine if what I’ve done is forgivable besides numerous people and sources saying I am forgiven (Friends, InTouchMinistries, Family). Back in high school I would smoke a lot of weed. Well one day I was out of rolling papers and foolishly used the blank pages and measurements page of the Bible to roll joints. I am so worried that what I did is unforgivable and that what I did was blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.
First, let’s pause and take a breath. In moments like these, prayer can be a powerful balm for our troubled hearts. Let’s start with one:
Lord, we come to you with heavy hearts, seeking Your infinite wisdom and grace. Guide us to understand Your forgiveness and help us to forgive ourselves. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
Understanding Blasphemy Against the Holy Spirit
The concept of blasphemy against the Holy Spirit can be confusing and even frightening. But let’s break it down:
What It Is Not
Blasphemy against the Holy Spirit is not a single act of disrespect or misuse of holy items. If it were, many of us would be in trouble!
What It Actually Means
Most theologians agree that blasphemy against the Holy Spirit involves:
- A persistent, willful rejection of God’s grace
- Attributing the works of the Holy Spirit to evil forces
The key here is persistence. It’s a hardening of the heart over time, not a momentary lapse in judgment.
Good News: You’re Seeking Forgiveness!
Here’s the beautiful truth: If you’re worried about having committed this sin, you almost certainly haven’t. Why? Because those who have truly blasphemed against the Holy Spirit wouldn’t be concerned about it. They would have no desire for forgiveness.
Your guilt and your seeking of forgiveness are clear signs that the Holy Spirit is still working in your life!
Steps Toward Peace
- Accept God’s Forgiveness: Remember, God’s grace is bigger than any sin we could commit.
- Forgive Yourself: Often, this is the hardest part. But it’s important for moving forward.
A Final Word of Encouragement
Your past doesn’t define you. What defines you is your relationship with God right now, in this moment. Keep seeking Him, keep growing, and remember that His love for you is unchanging and eternal.
‘If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.’ - 1 John 1:9
You are loved, you are forgiven, and you are on a journey of growth. Keep walking forward in faith!